Dear Johnny,Another year has past, sometimes it seems so long since I held you in my arms and kissed your beautiful cherub like cheeks. 9 years this evening since I fed u for the last time, kissed you good night and tucked you into bed for the last time. Right now it only feels like yesterday, its hard to imagine it was 108 months ago because it is etched in my memory perfectly. Its taken almost a decade and the support of some very special people but when I think of you now (most of the time) I smile, because I know I was blessed to have even those short weeks with you, some people are not lucky enough to have that. It still hurts to know that I will never get to watch you grow up, and become the wonderful man I know you would have been. I have already missed out watching take ur first steps, saying ur first word, I didnt get a chance to shed a tear as I watch u go to nursery for the first time, or make ur pack lunch for ur first day at school, I'll never get to go to ur sports events or give out because my entire Sunday is taken up by driving u about, I'll never have to ground you for coming in late or will I ever get to show ur baby photos to your first girlfriend. But for 23 wonderfully special days of my life in September 2001 you were nestled safely in my arms, but know my beautiful little boy that no matter how many decades pass you will always, always be nestled safely in my heart.I love you and miss you so very much my beautiful perfect little man. Night night my sweet little angel, mummy loves now and always.Mommy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
This candle was first lit on the 27th of September 2010 and will burn for 86 years 4 months and 24 days.